Holding my last breath...

"Did it give you pleasure to steal my soul?"

2007-04-27T18:25:36Z

"September Sun" by Type O Negative is the song of the year. 2007 isn't even halfway over yet, but trust me on this. It is fucking beautiful and I worship it.

Too bad they didn't perform it live when I saw them on Wednesday. All is well, though... I forgive them this time.

Love it.

DMCLADJFWEUR.

2007-04-12T05:45:45Z

No clue what to think. None whatsoever. Life.

Hectic times

2006-12-05T21:32:18Z

Hmm... well, my first semester at SOSU is coming to a close very soon. Overall I liked it. It's quite different from the two years I spent at a little community college -- much less like high school than my first two years of college for sure. It has definitely kept me busy, and I have met some interesting people in the process.

To wrap the semester up, I have an 8-page research paper for my Critical Approaches to Literature class due Thursday, and I haven't even started on it. Some things really never change. I have a demo tape to record for Audio Production (which I'll do tomorrow), and a final exam in Audio Production that has to be done by the 14th. I think I'll get that out of the way tomorrow though.

Most importantly, five days from now, I will travel 5 hours to see Leaves' Eyes live/meet them. That is undoubtedly going to be one of the most amazing moments of my life. Leaves' Eyes NEVER comes to America, so it'll be well worth the long drive.

So there's my update... life is alright, and will get much better once the semester officially ends...

Misc.

2006-10-30T17:49:28Z

Life has been making even less sense than usual. One second I'm thrilled, the next I'm pissed. And deep down, I know that all this chaos can be tracked down to a couple of sources: college, which has been keeping me ridiculously busy and ridiculously stressed, and of course him.

I don't understand him at all. Or anyone really.

But yeah... Theatre Of Tragedy rules.. I don't know what I'd do without music...

Things

2006-07-20T00:27:16Z

So my mother's uncle lost his battle with lung cancer. May he rest peacefully. I'll miss him very much.

Honestly, I've had death on my mind A LOT lately, and the concept of it scares the hell out of me. And every time someone close to me -- or even in the case of a stranger sometimes -- dies, I vow that I'll really start living and stop taking every little thing for granted.

It works for about a week, then I'm back to my old ways of impatience, getting aggravated by the tiniest hindrances, and being a bitch to anyone and everyone who I cross paths with.

I have a lot of contemplation to do.

On a much lighter note, I finally picked up Down's Nola today. I got Seether's One Cold Night CD/DVD set too. So we can call it purchases-of-albums-by-bands-with-hot-motherfucking-vocalists day. Sounds good.

Too bad

2006-07-04T07:13:51Z

ALL THE GOOD GUYS ARE TAKEN. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

I'm feeling really angry and sad and aggressive lately. You know that furious phase people allegedly go through when they're 12/13? I'm getting mine 7 or 8 years late.

This, too, shall pass.

Honestly

2006-07-02T16:35:36Z

I have no fucking idea how I'm still alive. I can put up with this pure hell that is supposed to be my home no longer.

Something has to be done...really fast.

Yes

2006-06-25T23:18:58Z

Fucking hot.

Philip H. Anselmo

2006-06-21T18:07:12Z

Probably the hottest guy I've ever seen.

Whoa

2006-04-24T15:57:56Z

I have some free time.

I could use it constructively by working on my 4-page Lit essay (which is due Wednesday), or I could always start on either of my 10-page research papers (which are both due May 1, for Government and Tech. Writing, respectively).

Or I could write my Midnattsol review and let the world know about this fabulous piece of music they may never hear of if not for all the over-the-top gushing I'm about to take part in.

Yeah, I'll do that.

Heheh

2006-03-24T04:50:06Z

I really should stop this.

:)

Wee

2006-02-27T19:19:45Z

-

2006-02-17T15:19:11Z

Sparkling angel I believed
you were my saviour in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
all the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
no mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart.

You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke your promise and made me realise.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?

I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
no mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart

You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realise.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
it doesnt give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

The smile when you tore me apart.

"Angels" - Within Temptation

Wow.

2006-02-15T01:57:55Z

Um, that was a bit of a shock.

All I have to say is this: She'd better treat him well, or else I'll come after her with...a sharp object or something.

Really.

Sigh

2006-02-06T03:17:15Z

I am so ending up with him someday. Mark my words.

deep breath

2006-02-02T17:03:53Z

I guess I've been a pretty nice person all my life.

I'd like to think that I deserve something good every once in a while.

Here's hoping that everything goes according to plan today.

....*inhale*

Sheesh

2006-01-29T19:32:06Z

I haven't posted here for ages. As if anyone wants an update -

- I did meet Korn on December 19...3/4 of them, anyway. After waiting outside in the cold for three hours, we were all informed that Jonathan Davis consumed poisonous tacos, became ill, and couldn't make it. Fuck.

- I got a new portable CD player for Christmas. Believe me, it's far more exciting than it sounds.

- 2006 hasn't been that great for me so far, but that will soon change.

- I'm only taking ONE class on campus this semester - World Lit. 2. My other three classes, you ask? ALL ONLINE! What a perfect excuse to spend more time on this brain-eating machine known as the computer.

- I'm so addicted to Sevendust and Within Temptation lately. Everyone should listen to them.

- The Disturbed show, and meet-and-greet, is in FOUR DAYS.

- I have absolutely no idea what to say or do. But I'll post pics when it happens. A picture says 1,000 words, they say.

- Oh, and my birthday's in ... 24 days!

Ughhhhhhhh.....

2005-12-12T00:29:53Z

The mere thought of final exams makes me physically ill.

First of all - it's no secret that I'm a complete and absolute IDIOT. Here it is, the night before my Government exam, and I haven't studied at all.

Looks like I won't be getting any sleep tonight.

And I'm really, really hoping that I didn't get a D in Earth Science Lab. I haven't done any precise calculations (I'm too chicken shit to do that, because I'd probably get a number in the 60s and that would make me have a mental breakdown), but in my head, it seems like the number should be riding around late 60s or early 70s.

I mean -- we took 6 or 7 quizzes in there. I made 80's on all of 'em except one that I made a 20 on. So whatever that kind of number that creates will be my grade. Probably not very pretty.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFuck.

On a much happier note...8 more days.

~

2005-12-01T16:15:27Z

Tower Records Dallas is thrilled to welcome the members of KORN to our store for this very exclusive autograph signing! Stop by on Monday December 19th and meet the band! Be sure to pick up their new CD, See You On The Other Side on December 6th and get a VIP wristband for priority admission into the signing event! Yes, buy the CD with us and we'll give you VIP admittance into the signing event! We'll see you on the 19th!

HAH! So looks like I'll be buying multiple copies. A trip to the used-CD bin may be in order to sell back some old junk and get some quick cash.

18 more days...

"I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me"

2005-11-27T06:45:32Z

22 MORE DAYS...

Oh: I got my Christmas present early. Yay for Black Friday sales.

It's a 20" flat screen TV with a DVD player.

Translation - I'll never have to leave my room again. :)

!_!

2005-11-22T17:00:19Z

Holy sheet. KoRN is doing an autograph signing 45 mins. away from me on December 19.

What on earth will I say to this man...

...I'm just not quite sure yet.

-

2005-11-16T05:01:07Z

Can 2006 get here soon enough?

Ahhhhhh

2005-11-08T19:12:58Z

YAYYYYYYY...I might get to see KoRN on December 18!

*holds breath*

R.I.P., Bon Bon :(

2005-10-26T22:58:02Z

My great 16-year-old doggie died today, after being attacked by a coyote last night...

:(

"I've watched a chaaaaaange in youuuuuuu"

2005-10-14T17:11:58Z

School has been swiftly kicking my eyebrow lately. Tests are popping up like a plague. Teachers getting all pissy. Me = exhausted and grateful for the weekend.

Ah, well.

I got highlights the other day. Observe:

Isn't it great how the hairstylist makes your hair look all nice the first day, and it feels soft, looks healthy, and such?

Then when you actually wash it, even conditioning it like crazy, it's a mess of tangles because of all the damage the haircolor has done?

Deception. :) But it's a cool change. I was sick of the black.

Weekend, here I come.